Sunday, September 16, 2007
sometimes , when i think about all of this , i get so confused . why do the people you love just don't love you in return ? why do the people you treat as friends grow to love you more ? why don't things just go our way ? why is it so difficult ? i miss you . i miss you a little more each day , sweetheart . do you know tt ? everything tt i do , reminds me of you .
and now i'm scared . oh so scared . scared to love you . what if i get hurt again ? what if everything turns out the same ? love is a gamble . do i want to risk it all ? i keep asking myself , time and time again , why do i like you so much ? how have i grown so attached to you ? i can't help it . you so addictive . i tried letting go , i swear . i know you have someone else in mind . and i know i'm gonna miss you . your company , your laughter , your smile , your warmth . you promised me once tt it'll be the same no matter what , but it won't . you'll be busy with her while i lay here , alone .
nothing will ever be the same again once you have someone else . why can't i let you go ? i know i should but i just can't . i'm so afraid to love yet i can't let you go . isn't tt so contradicting ? i don't know what i should do . should i just assume you like her ? should i just let go ? how could you forget me tt fast ? i wonder . all the words of love you whispered in my ear , you forgot them all ? how could you ? teach me to forget you && everything tt has happened .
i know that if i let you go , i'll never ever find someone like you . these past few days , i've been thinking , thinking alot . about everything . i can't help but realise tt most of my thoughts are of you . why ? why am i suffering when you're so happy , rejoicing every moment of your life ? i need you back in my life . i've done you wrong . i know . and i'm sorry . but you left such a great impact on my life . i can't forget you . i can't let you go . i can't , just can't .